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So a couple weeks ago, I had a little bit of a breakdown… Well I knew it was coming because id been the cause of it but I’d made sure to try and keep it on the low down by not telling dad the entire truth. 

And as a lie stays dormant it grows and festers till eventually it’s forced to surface and you’re left reeling in its wake trying to fathom what the hell just happened… 

As always dad was so incredibly supportive and regardless of the fact that he was so disappointed in everything, he took to trying to make things right… 

I think dad also realized that this was the third time and that from my perspective I was just crying out for help…

So he made arrangements for me to see Dr. Nolte at the University who is head of the Psychology Department… 

We went through last Friday and had a two hour session with her… 

What a relief to have someone to talk to and understand. We’ll be running some tests at my next session on Thursday, to see if medication is the right way forward. I’m just happy there’s been a formal diagnosis. Which to me means that there is a reason for why I’ve felt the way that I have - and that for one, I’m not crazy…

Recurring depression - is what they’re calling it. I’ve read so many books on the issue of depression and one stands out - Bonnie Henna (Eyebags and Dimples). She speaks of dealing with depression for most of her adolescent and adult life and how crippling the disease was for her…

I’m just so glad that we now know what the problem is and that finally I know there’s a way forward…

Most of my friends find me to be an extremely happy and bubbly person, and I think that is what makes it difficult to pick up on is the fact that generally it’s the happiest people that live the darkest days…

I must say my friends have all been so incredibly supportive… 

Here’s to hopefully a better and brighter future… 

One thing I’d like to point out is that regardless of the fact that it might have been over a year since you’ve lost a love one, it may take a lot longer than society realizes to overcome a loss as great as the one you’ve suffered… I seem to be stuck on the Saturday night when my mom sat in the dining room and we shared a moment where we looked into each other’s eyes and realized the hopelessness of the situation and the cancer…

It’s been from that moment that I’ve felt the guilt that I couldn’t take moms pain away or make the situation any easier for her…

So a couple weeks ago, I had a little bit of a breakdown… Well I knew it was coming because id been the cause of it but I’d made sure to try and keep it on the low down by not telling dad the entire truth.

And as a lie stays dormant it grows and festers till eventually it’s forced to surface and you’re left reeling in its wake trying to fathom what the hell just happened…

As always dad was so incredibly supportive and regardless of the fact that he was so disappointed in everything, he took to trying to make things right…

I think dad also realized that this was the third time and that from my perspective I was just crying out for help…

So he made arrangements for me to see Dr. Nolte at the University who is head of the Psychology Department…

We went through last Friday and had a two hour session with her…

What a relief to have someone to talk to and understand. We’ll be running some tests at my next session on Thursday, to see if medication is the right way forward. I’m just happy there’s been a formal diagnosis. Which to me means that there is a reason for why I’ve felt the way that I have - and that for one, I’m not crazy…

Recurring depression - is what they’re calling it. I’ve read so many books on the issue of depression and one stands out - Bonnie Henna (Eyebags and Dimples). She speaks of dealing with depression for most of her adolescent and adult life and how crippling the disease was for her…

I’m just so glad that we now know what the problem is and that finally I know there’s a way forward…

Most of my friends find me to be an extremely happy and bubbly person, and I think that is what makes it difficult to pick up on is the fact that generally it’s the happiest people that live the darkest days…

I must say my friends have all been so incredibly supportive…

Here’s to hopefully a better and brighter future…

One thing I’d like to point out is that regardless of the fact that it might have been over a year since you’ve lost a love one, it may take a lot longer than society realizes to overcome a loss as great as the one you’ve suffered… I seem to be stuck on the Saturday night when my mom sat in the dining room and we shared a moment where we looked into each other’s eyes and realized the hopelessness of the situation and the cancer…

It’s been from that moment that I’ve felt the guilt that I couldn’t take moms pain away or make the situation any easier for her…

On of the hardest things in life to accept and get used to…

On of the hardest things in life to accept and get used to…

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On the conquest to meeting mister right…
After coming out in my first year at uni, i can honestly sat that I’ve met some of the most amazing guys . If i could give one word of advice to everyone on handling breakups, try as hard as you possibly can to make sure that each person you break things up with, that you leave things as amicable as possible. I know that with saying that there was one guy i think i completely screwed over - Joey (I am so sorry still). Honestly such an amazing guy but i think that things just moved way too fast and got real so fast as well, that i panicked and did the only thing i knew to do at the time - Run, and then because i felt so bad about what i’d done i tried to make sure that he wouldn’t pop up in my news feed or my whatssap or anything really for that matter. Which makes me such an ass. But i hope I’ve been able to remedy things with him. I think he also understands better than anyone, the space and mindset i was in at that time. So, yes, try to separate and try to stay friends, its so comforting knowing that if i go out and bump into anyone that i could pull up a chair and continue and that things don’t have to be awkward…

On the conquest to meeting mister right…

After coming out in my first year at uni, i can honestly sat that I’ve met some of the most amazing guys . If i could give one word of advice to everyone on handling breakups, try as hard as you possibly can to make sure that each person you break things up with, that you leave things as amicable as possible. I know that with saying that there was one guy i think i completely screwed over - Joey (I am so sorry still). Honestly such an amazing guy but i think that things just moved way too fast and got real so fast as well, that i panicked and did the only thing i knew to do at the time - Run, and then because i felt so bad about what i’d done i tried to make sure that he wouldn’t pop up in my news feed or my whatssap or anything really for that matter. Which makes me such an ass. But i hope I’ve been able to remedy things with him. I think he also understands better than anyone, the space and mindset i was in at that time. So, yes, try to separate and try to stay friends, its so comforting knowing that if i go out and bump into anyone that i could pull up a chair and continue and that things don’t have to be awkward…

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Hey, guys!!! So wow, its been a while but i’m back and hopeful i’ll be posting a lot more frequently… How is everyone. Drop me the deets, the 90210, what’s been going down, what’s up…
So it’s fathers day on Sunday in SA and naturally i have no idea what to get for dad Father’s day. He’ll also be away cause i messed up the dates, he’s doing Sani Pass so hopefully it’ll be snowing, and yes dad has met someone. After mom passed away last year, it wasn’t long before dad felt the need to replace in some way what he’d lost and so in about July he tried online dating, So at 61 dad set out to try rekindle the lost knowledge of the dating world he’d once had as a teenager. He met Yvonne who was around briefly but demanded way too much, too soon and dad broke things off. At the moment dad’s with an amazing woman, Leana. She also just so happens to be the Faculty Administration Head for my Faculty - Natural and Agricultural Science, which was a major adjustment. 
Yep my life really does play like a scene from some weirdly, coincidental movie. She’s 51, so 10 years younger than him. Which was also kind of an adjustment. What’s your take on age in a relationship. Is it just a number? I can wrap my head around my dad and Leana, i think because they’re both over the age of 40 but, i would never date a guy, personally, who was over the age of 30…
Am i being weird?
Ciao (Over and out..)

Hey, guys!!! So wow, its been a while but i’m back and hopeful i’ll be posting a lot more frequently… How is everyone. Drop me the deets, the 90210, what’s been going down, what’s up…

So it’s fathers day on Sunday in SA and naturally i have no idea what to get for dad Father’s day. He’ll also be away cause i messed up the dates, he’s doing Sani Pass so hopefully it’ll be snowing, and yes dad has met someone. After mom passed away last year, it wasn’t long before dad felt the need to replace in some way what he’d lost and so in about July he tried online dating, So at 61 dad set out to try rekindle the lost knowledge of the dating world he’d once had as a teenager. He met Yvonne who was around briefly but demanded way too much, too soon and dad broke things off. At the moment dad’s with an amazing woman, Leana. She also just so happens to be the Faculty Administration Head for my Faculty - Natural and Agricultural Science, which was a major adjustment. 

Yep my life really does play like a scene from some weirdly, coincidental movie. She’s 51, so 10 years younger than him. Which was also kind of an adjustment. What’s your take on age in a relationship. Is it just a number? I can wrap my head around my dad and Leana, i think because they’re both over the age of 40 but, i would never date a guy, personally, who was over the age of 30…

Am i being weird?

Ciao (Over and out..)

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Boy Doesn’t See His Father As An Inspiration Until He Discovers His Dad’s Secret.

On the topic of having money doesn’t make you rich…

Posted 3 months ago with 2 Notes - Reblog
# hope # compassion # selflessness 
Raimundo Arruda Sobrinho was a homeless man in São Paulo, Brazil who lived on the same street corner for nearly 35 years.

He was known locally for writing in his books every day. Then in April 2011 a young woman named Shalla Monteiro befriended him and tried to help him achieve his dream of publishing a book. She created a Facebook Page featuring his writing, but nobody could have predicted what would happen next.

More at: https://aplus.com/a/woman-befriends-homeless-man-brazil

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@boniver Thank You 

lhente-louise:

20 Januarie 23h48 - 00h01

Tonight I’m in the dark listening to BON IVER possibly drunk, as I sat outside under the stars and finished 1 and a half bottles of incredibly cheap wine. Yes. Trashy maybe? But come on… Cheap wine is what makes student life amazing.

Can I just start this off by…

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A rainy day thought.  

lhente-louise:

So I’ve decided my husband will be: english, poetic, liberal and free. And crazy smart. And strangely attractive, but to me the hottest person on earth. And I’m going to be in love with his cheeks, and his honour and his mind and everything he is embarrassed about. And I’m going to love everyone he has ever loved and he is going to drive me to church. That’s it. Or, rather, that’s enough.

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